It’s about 1am some time in February 2013 & I’m lying awake (again), I feel stuck in a hamster wheel of stress, anxiety & turmoil.
I can’t turn my thoughts off and go to sleep as my brain has other ideas!
And physically, well physically, I’m very underweight, thinning hair and having constant headaches and upset stomachs.
Then, suddenly, hang on, what just happened? What was that noise like a ‘ping’ sound? I don’t feel right, best go to the toilet. I feel off balance and noises in the house don’t sound right. I take myself back to bed and thankfully go to sleep.
Long story, short. That night, while tossing and turning and worrying, worrying, worrying I lost 70% of my hearing in my left ear and developed Tinnitus which I still have to this day.
Question – so, what have I learnt?
Answer – to listen to my body.
I was getting messages from my body for years that I wasn’t coping, but I kept pushing them away because it felt like giving in, being weak, and I had people relying on me. You just push through the tough times, right? They just make you stronger, right?
Having the benefit of hindsight and a thriving career as a Therapist, I now know my body was trying to warn me to slow down, to listen to the warning signs.
I consider myself lucky, it could have been a lot worse.
I now know that our sub conscious is constantly monitoring our body and mind, if it picks up on something different or that needs our attention it gives us a signal, a message; if we don’t listen it gives us a BIGGER signal and so on, until we get the message.
Losing my hearing was enough to make me sit up and take stock.
Stress, anxiety, headaches and upset stomachs are now long behind me. I am a good weight for my height and don’t lose handfuls of hair in the shower!
Life is good 
