A lot of people who meet me think I’ve got my act together, and often tell me so.
But the truth is, I still have days, when I STRUGGLE to pull myself together, when I feel OVERWHELMED by the day or week ahead of me, when I feel I am in, totally over my head.
And I deal with this STUFF for a living!!
I sometimes feel I am not WORTHY to be doing the job I do, with the responsibility of other people’s sometimes delicate lives in my hands, who do I think I am? Why should they listen to me? Pay me? What do I know?
It actually has a name, it’s known as “Imposter Syndrome” (the persistent inability to believe that one’s success is deserved or has been legitimately achieved as a result of one’s own efforts or skills).
I am mixing in a world with some VERY successful Therapists, who are known WORLDWIDE for their skills, who have developed courses and written books and then, there is little old me, sitting in my therapy room in Southend on Sea.
I get a quiet week or month and think yes; they’ve realised I don’t know what I’m talking about!
I’ll get a good review and think it’s a fluke; I just got lucky on that one.
When I’m thinking like this, I DON’T think about the thousands of hours and pounds 
! I have spent on my training to ensure I am working with the LATEST methods out there.
The KNOWLEDGE I’m gaining from each and every client that sits in front of me.
The amount of people who say how much BETTER they feel after seeing me.
The problem is, I’ve spent SO many years with anxiety and doubting myself that when things start to go well, that little voice jumps up and says, ‘YOU aren’t worthy.”
I’m still learning, exploring and developing on a daily basis. as long as I keep talking about it, and pushing myself, I know I’ll eventually shake off this old way of thinking for GOOD.
We are all a work in progress.
